PTSD: Not Only a Soldier’s Disease

When Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) comes up on the news, it’s usually in the context of veterans. However, there are many types of trauma that a person can experience in a lifetime without ever setting foot on a battlefield. Loss of a loved one, sexual assault, and the loss of a loved one are a few examples of that trauma.

PTSD does not have to develop from a personal experience but can be caused by seeing or hearing a life-threatening event, even if one’s own life is not threatened. For example, it is likely that many people who witnessed the Boston Marathon bombing of 2013—regardless of whether they were near the explosion—developed PTSD as a reaction to the tragic event.

PTSD impacts not only the suffering individuals but those close to them. It can also emerge years after the triggering event. To see if the symptoms that you are experiencing are similar to those of PTSD, make time for a quick check-in at


I Screen, You Screen

It’s a known truth that illness can be most effectively treated when it is identified early. If you have an ear infection, start your antibiotics before things get worse. If you discover that you have heart problems, changing your lifestyle could protect you from a future heart attack. Why should mental health be any different?

Hint: it isn’t. Although one in five people have a diagnosable mental health disorder, only 44% of adults and 20% of children receive the treatment that they need. Why? One reason is the stigma surrounding mental health, which prevents people from feeling comfortable seeking help. Another is a general lack of knowledge about mental health resources.
When mental health screenings are regularly accessible to the public, checking on your mental health becomes normalized and less stigmatized. Where mental health screenings are available, there is also access to referral information that helps individuals take the next steps in seeking care. And, once someone has taken a screening, they gain a better idea as to whether they might have symptoms of a mental health disorder.
Mental health screenings are typically available at a primary care physician’s office, but there is no need to wait for your annual appointment to check in with yourself. Beck Psychotherapy has an online mental health screening program available at any hour of the day and from the comfort of your phone or tablet. Mental health screenings are free, anonymous, brief, and will provide you with referral information for resources in your area. Get your “check up from the neck up” here:

Mental Health and Technology: A Double-Edged Sword

As with all things, technology can be bad or good for you depending on how you use it. In the context of mental health, tech is generally represented as a negative. And it can be: Using your phone before bed suppresses melatonin production, making it harder to fall asleep and impacting the quality of the sleep that you do get. Extended use of social media exacerbates anxiety and can lower self-esteem. Digital communication may impede the development of face-to-face social skills that are an essential part of life.

However, technology is here to stay and we must learn to control how often and in what ways we use it for the benefit of our health. Technology has made mental health care more accessible and personalized. Smartphone apps help people moderate their anxiety and monitor dangerous addictions. Some programs allow doctors to keep in touch with patients and track their progress.

Another advantage that technology brings to the mental health world is the addition of online screenings to augment regular health care regimens. These platforms give individuals a means of checking in with their mental health privately and easily, with instant access to a variety of educational resources and local referral information. Take a brief, anonymous mental health screening today at and experience how technology can help us care for ourselves and others!

May is Mental Health Month: What You Need to Know

Mental health is a difficult subject for some, but it doesn’t have to be! When dealing with mental health, like physical health, one needs intervention when systems are not operating correctly.

Normalizing conversation about mental health helps reduce the stigma around it. When people feel more comfortable discussing their mental health issues, they are more likely to seek help. The following some facts and statistics illustrate the prevalence of mental illness.


  1. More than 40 million Americans experience mental illness during a single year. That’s one in five people you walk by on the street. Just because you cannot see the illness does not mean that it is not there.
  1. One quarter of the people mentioned above have co-occurring mental illness and addiction disorders. 10 million Americans are dealing with double the struggle.
  1. Half of all chronic mental illness reveals itself as early as age 14 (if not earlier!). Being aware of possible symptoms and seeking treatment early can help save a life.
  1. Only 44% of adults with diagnosable mental health problems receive proper treatment. This means that the other 56% go untreated, often due to lack of education about mental health, or fear of stigma. If you think that you or a loved one might be showing signs of a mental health disorder, you can take the first step to recovery with a free, anonymous screening at


Remember: you are not alone. Call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) to speak to someone at the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.


*Statistics from National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI)

Should You Try Counseling?

17758672_1308908289147095_8733002003987221265_oApril is Counseling Awareness Month, so many people use this time to check in on their mental health and make an appointment with a counselor. If you’ve been to a mental health counselor before, you know what to expect, although there is always something to learn by trying again. If you haven’t ever visited a mental health counselor, this is a great time to try.

There are lots of misconceptions about what happens in a mental health counselor’s office, but the reality is that it is really just a conversation between two people, one of whom is educated in helping people when they are going through difficult times or want to figure something out.

A counselor will not solve your problems, tell you what to do, or impose his or her personal beliefs on your situation. A counselor will help you identify what you would like to address or change in your life.

People who visit a counselor simply want to improve their lives. It is not a weakness, nor is it a crutch. Visiting a counselor shows strength! It shows that you are ready and willing to tackle issues in your life that you want to change. You may even want to check your own mental health before visiting a counselor by taking a brief self-assessment at

The Key to Calm is in Your Mind (fulness)

IMG_8269You’ve probably heard a lot about mindfulness. We hear about it doing everything from helping people manage pain, alleviate anxiety and depression, and even helping with weight loss. How, and what exactly does mindfulness mean? Aren’t we always being mindful of what we are doing? Not exactly. Think about how often you are doing one thing but thinking about another.

Mindfulness is a practice in which you focus on the physical feelings of what you are doing and maintain a moment-by-moment awareness. If you are someone who enjoys sensory activities, try a mindfulness exercise with play-doh or hand cream. Focus on how it feels on your hands. Try to think about nothing other than the feeling, scent, and look of what is in your hands.

It’s important to focus on all this without judging the experience as good or bad. Some people find mindfulness easier than other forms of meditation because it does not require that you “clear” the mind. Instead, you have something to focus on and that focus can take you out of feelings of anxiety and put you in a calmer state. Of course, simply practicing mindfulness will not address everyone’s anxiety. Another step in addressing any mental health symptoms is taking a free and anonymous screening, which Beck Psychotherapy offers at

Coping with the Aftermath of Suicide: Project Semicolon’s Founder, Amy Bleuel, Loses Battle with Depression


The mental health community has been reeling the last few days as we learned of the passing of one of our fiercest, and most recognizable warriors, Project Semicolon Founder Amy Bleuel. Amy took her life late last week at the age of 31 after battling with severe depression most of her life. After surviving her father’s suicide, and years of her own suicide attempts, Amy started Project Semicolon in 2013. Amy chose this particular punctuation as the trademark to her movement, noting that the semicolon is a point in a sentence where you can either place a period and end the sentence, or use a semicolon and continue. She used this as a metaphor for life, that the sentence is your life, and “you’re story isn’t over yet”.

Over the last few years, semicolon tattoos have been popping up by the thousands. For many, the semicolon tattoo is a concrete symbol to not give up hope, not give up life. For others, it is a show of support for those who are struggling. I fall in the latter category, and got mine the summer of 2015, 9 months before I met Amy. As a therapist, I wanted to a visible way to let anyone know who saw my tattoo that I understand, that I care, and that their life is worth saving. I also wanted to have an opportunity to spread awareness and reduce stigma, by having people who hadn’t heard of the movement to ask me about my tattoo.

Me & Amy SC Tats

I met Amy on May 6, 2016 when we invited her and Joseph Penola of the You Rock Foundation to be guest speakers at several events for our First Friday kick-off of Mental Health Awareness Month in downtown State College, PA. As my business was one of the sponsors and coordinators of the event, I had the opportunity to chaperone Amy and Joseph from one event to the next, share lunch and dinner with them, and during some downtime, take them to our downtown office to create their own masks for our mental health awareness month mask painting project. The theme was “the many faces of mental health”. We hosted several events throughout the month of April where people from both the Penn State community and the State College community created the most extraordinary masks, which were unveiled at local businesses downtown that day. Amy let us keep the one she painted, in retrospect both beautiful and haunting.

Amy Mask

Amy was to appear at the downtown tattoo shops, which had agreed to donate a portion of the proceeds for semicolon tattoos to a local mental health nonprofit, the JanaMarie Foundation, named after the founder’s sister, who lost her battle with depression in 2011. Amy decided she wanted a new tattoo to add to her collection, and was looking for a partner in crime. I had been contemplating getting a new tattoo, and who better to get it with than the very person who had inspired my last tattoo, a person I was getting to know well over the course of a day and evening, and found myself connecting to. We decided on the infinity symbol, mine on the back of my neck, hers on her forearm, and dubbed ourselves “infinity sisters for life”.

Me & Amy Infinity TatsPhoto credit: Laura Desantis-Olsson

Our friendship continued to blossom over the next few months, over long distance. I was beyond honored when she asked me to be the Secretary of Project Semicolon’s Board of Directors. Due to my other commitments, I agreed to come on as an interim secretary to see the board through some transition, and left the board at the beginning of this year. We remained friends, and I was so thrilled to hear about her plans of moving the Project forward and upward.

And then came Wednesday, March 29th. Joseph sent me a panicked message asking if it was true about Amy. I had no idea what he was talking about. Within minutes we learned the truth, that she had taken her life several days ago. We were stunned, shocked, and deeply saddened. We were sad we lost a friend. We were sad her family lost a wife, a daughter, a sister. We were saddened for all of the many, many friends Amy had. She was the kind of person you could instantly connect with. She was non-judgmental and kind. She had a warmth that drew you in. And then we thought about the thousands and thousands of people she had inspired through her message. The people for whose semicolon tattoo was their touchstone to the land of the living, a place of hope. How could the person who started an anti-suicide movement take their own life? She had family, she had friends, she had resources at her disposal, she knew better. She knew from losing her father how painful a suicide is to those left behind. We feared that the people she touched would think, if Amy, with all of her knowledge and resources took her life, what chance do I have?

Death is something none of us want to think about, and when it touches us, we want someone, something to blame for our pain. If we lose a loved one in a car accident, we can blame the other driver; to cancer, we blame the disease. The blame can be easily placed anywhere else but the person who died. Suicide is different. The person who takes their life seemingly had a choice, and chose not to live. They chose to leave us. We can blame them; we can call them selfish (for another perspective, see Mesa Fama’s article, Please Stop Saying Suicide is Selfish).

As a therapist, I am not inclined to invalidate anyone’s feelings. I understand that when loved ones call people selfish for purposefully dying, they are saying this out of pain and grief, and looking for somewhere to place those feelings. I also understand that for people who are suicidal, calling them selfish is unwarranted and not particularly helpful. They are not ending their life to hurt others; they are in intolerable amounts of pain and looking for a relief that has thus far been out of reach. Writer David Foster Wallace, who lost his battle with depression, and took his life in 2008 at age 46, gives us an inside glimpse into the mind of someone walking the tightrope of depression and suicidality: “The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling.”

I have worked with suicidal people, and understand that terror is just as real for them as a room engulfed in flames. I also know that the terror is fleeting, and what feels like a situation with only one possible solution – death, has many alternatives, and sometimes what they need is a caring person willing to walk through the fire to bring them to safety. For those struggling today who lost their beacon of hope in Amy, who feel hopeless and helpless in the wake of her death, remember her message and what that has meant to you. Remember she was human, and flawed, but try not to blame her for leaving us way too soon. I know how much she cared about each and every person she encountered and whose lives she touched. Reach out to your family, your friends, your therapist, a hotline like the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-8255) or their online chat. We are out here and willing to walk through that fire for you. Because you are worth it. Because you matter. Because we love you. Because we are not afraid of your flames; our greatest fear is losing you.

Amy’s life work was helping others, that was her calling, that is where she felt most alive. Her death is a sober reminder to those of us who spend our time helping others, whether in a professional capacity and/or in our personal life, to ask for help when we need it. We don’t always have to be the pillars of strength – it is okay to be on the receiving end of love and support. I frequently say to my patients who shudder at the thought of asking others for help, fearing they will be perceived as weak: asking for help is a sign of strength, not a sign of weakness. It means you are willing and ready to fight, and just realize you need some more people on your side. Look around, we are here and we have your back. You’re story isn’t over yet.